Today I feel like you will never arrive. Maybe you are just about to.
Today adoptive parents are discussing faith, and (challenging) the belief that each child arrives in God's time, and that each heartbreak that leads to that child's arrival is necessary in God's plan. I am, and will remain, undecided on that matter. The reasons you will lose your first family are manmade, and the mistakes that have delayed us are manmade as well. But from those losses, a beautiful thing will be made. Perhaps that is the part that is God's will, and not the first or the second. Perhaps your arriving at the care center and our name reaching the top of the list at the same time is only the happiest of accidents, and more miraculous for that.
I also think incessantly about all the things you might be experiencing, all the painful things that have to happen to you and to your first family before you will be my daughter.
From AlertNet -
NAIROBI, 24 February (IRIN) - The drought situation in southeastern Ethiopia is already "critical" and is expected to deteriorate over the coming months if the rains continue to fail, the United Nations World Food Program (WFP) said.
Ethiopia, along with Djibouti, Somalia and Kenya, are facing a severe drought with some 11 million people at risk of serious food shortages.
Or check out Unicef's story on the drought. You can find both to the right.
My head swims and my heart hurts.