Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Harrowing Moment

I'm thinking through some pretty dense issues right now, and I'll post about them soon (the unwanted attention we receive from strange men; one more reason to never shop at walmart, as if you needed another; knowing that adult tra's are justifiably angry with us; knowing that when my kids are adults I'll have a lot more to answer for than most parents; Miss I's memories, and how we are learning about them without words; trying to balance thinking with being).

But in the meantime, one example of why I can't do any of that while Miss I is awake:
She's babbling on my lap, and I'm distracted for a moment. Then she's quiet, and I hear her cheeks suck in. I turn her around on my lap, look in her open mouth. A flash of silver in the back of her throat, quickly gone. With one hand, I thrust her forward, belly against my other fist, and a quarter drops to the floor. I cry, and ds hugs me: "She's okay, she's okay." She is okay -- she laughs. But I think she's trying to kill me.

Miss I, how I do love you, and how I fear for both of us.


Michelle said...

Moments like those make my heart stop! I can't believe how quickly she managed to swallow that quarter...how scary that must have been for you. Glad you were able to get it out and that she is ok and laughing again!

Overwhelmed! said...

Oh, how very scary! I'm so glad you got the coin out. Good job!